Such a Sucker

I am such a sucker for a great smile. No matter who it's on, when someone wears a great smile, I seem to melt. I love smiles..the flash of those pearly whites, the cute little dimples, the little crinkle near the eyes...and amazing smiles are popping up everywhere now that it's Christmas time! I've gone shopping several times, and you'd think that with all the craziness of the holidays, that more people would be cranky and rude...but to my surprise everyone is so jolly! Just the way it should be. Another thing that I love are lips...kissable lips..haha...gosh. I love those..I just want to go up to the guy and just feel those soft lips touch mine, as we get closer, and our body temperature rises. It makes me want to hold him tight, look into his eyes, flash him a smile, while expecting a smile back.


You know, for me, these kind of things are so much hotter than just sex, right here, right now. I need to be coaxed into it I guess. lol. I guess I'm not easy, you have to work for the goods when it comes to me. Is that a bad thing? Does that make it harder for other guys to like me. I know many people out there who just want to get laid, and get some action neglecting all that should come with it. Not many people want to be in a relationship these days, whether they be straight, gay or bi, or whatnot. But I do! I love the fact that you have to work to get what you want. I like the feeling I get when I first like someone and I try to impress them, but the more I try, the harder it gets. lol. I love that. I love that romance that should come with it all. lol. I'm so lame. Look at those lips...ugh I love Zanjoe! When I went to the Philippines, I saw him while I was at the mall, gosh...he's so beautiful. I didn't even know he was an actor in that country. Anyhow, I was in the same store as him and well the salesperson did not understand me very well, and Zanjoe just smiled his beautiful smile at me from a distance. I melted right there. Zanjoe was my big Filipino crush. Here are some other HOT Filipino boys...

-Dennis Trillo-



-Richard Gutierrez-


-Zanjoe Marudo-







Speaking of hot Filipinos...another hot Filipino that I cannot get out of my head these past few days, is Victor Basa. He is a model turned actor. Gosh. The abs on this one...it's insane. Haha. I'm so glad I'm going back soon. I can't wait to see these guys in person. *melt*.
Anyhow guys, I don't know when I'll be writing again soon, seeing as to it's holiday season and all. So thanks everyone for supporting me and giving me a chance to voice what's in my head. Thanks a bunch. Merry Christmas!!! and Happy Holidays to all.


-Victor Basa-



Secretly Yours,
-Donnie

I've Been Away....

Hey all, I've been away from the computer for a bit..the whole month of November actually. You have no idea how difficult it is when you are in a place with no internet connection. I felt so disconnected to the rest of the world. The reason for my disconnection is that I've been on vacation in the Pacific for a bit now. It's been an amazing trip, full of crazy adventures, drunken nights, full body massages and trying to get myself in all sorts of trouble. Anyhow, the life here in some of these Asian countries that I've visited have been very different from that in North America. I find that no matter the hardships of the people I meet on my adventures, they still take the time to have fun, to smile, spend time with family and friends, and just be happy altogether.

I have met people who work day and night just so they can pay the bills, and yet they are still so happy and content because they have a life to live. They don't take any second of their life for granted. I found it mesmerizing. There are some who are finding it hard trying to cope with paying the bills, some of whom have resorted to insane borrowing of money from others, who in turn charges insane amounts of interest. Yet they smile as if the whole world is smiling back at them. I love that mentality and I wanted to immerse myself in that.

Of course, they talk about the many hardships they go through and how difficult life is but they say they'd rather be living life this way as long as they're surrounded with their family and their friends. As long as they have something to live for they're happy. They are unlike many of us back in North America. We whine and complain about every little thing that we disagree with. I should know, I'm one of those people. But I had a change of heart when I stayed over there. All the complaints I would have had about how sometimes we run out of water to shower or that how backed up traffic is, or whatever else could have come up, never became an issue. And even if it did, I didn't voice them. I kept thinking that these people have to deal with these things every single day of their life, while I only have to endure it for a few weeks. Who was I to complain? And besides, being a foreigner, they treated me like royalty. They would do things for me that they wouldn't do for others, my newly made friends would tell me. It's definitely a different atmosphere.

So now that I've had a taste for that life....I've decided I wanted to stay longer. I want to live life like they live their lives. I want to experience it. I want to take it all in. I want to instill in myself that incredible sense of happiness that they get from the simplest things. I want to be like that. I want to be incredibly happy that I get the chance to see a movie once in a while, knowing that my money is going somewhere, and I also want to help out. I want to help my friends there, even just a little bit. But mostly I want to gain the mentality they have persisted through life with. I want it. I need it. So I'm going to be staying longer than I expected to. I may even spend Christmas there. We'll see. Anyhow, that is my little blurb on my current situation. I will bring more stories, detailed accounts of my misadventures. Hope to hear from you!

Here's a funny video..I love it haha. I'm pretty sure lot's of you have seen it too. All about masturbation.



Secretly Yours,

Donnie!

Love To Read...

I just love to read...and most of the time, I love to read about the lives of others. It's so fascinating what you can learn from how others have lived or are living their lives. I've read biographies of artists, actors, musicians, politicians, athletes, public figures and even regular everyday people. And that's exactly why I love blogs. As much as I love reading about these amazing public figures, it's a great change to read about the going-ons of regular people's lives. They are much more relatable to my life, and the situations I go through. Recently I've been reading and sifting through some blogs that I've posted on the links to the right. I had no idea that so many people shared my opinions and views on things such as politics, or life in
general.



One of these blogs is 'Lassiter Space' by Jay Lassiter. What made me go there in the first place was his comment on my post. LOL. He had an ingenious and clever costume. I immediately thought this guy was witty and intelligent, and he has yet to prove me wrong from what I've read. His witty banter on politics is a must-read, and his picture is soo cute. I love people who love kids.



The other blog that has caught my attention recently is Speedo Guy by a 23 yr old Aussie! That's right...he's Australian. The blog has great pictures of guys in speedoes, and he gives us a little glimpse of his experiences, which are great reads. He also likes Canadian guys. I may be a little biased because I'm Canadian, but I think he has good taste.lol. The picture below is just one of the many pictures you'll find on the blog.




So, I suggest you guys check these blogs out, and if there are blogs out there that you think I should check out. Definitely give me a shout. I love reading new and interesting things. You can leave a comment or e-mail me at dcoopenator at gmail dot com. Well that's all for now. Hope to hear from the lot of you soon!

Here's a little video that sort of creeped me out, but is still really hot..an overdue halloween presentation, I suppose.



-Secretly Yours,
Donnie

Best Weekend Ever...

Ok. It might not be the BEST weekend ever, but it was definitely up there. The Halloween Cab was this weekend, as previously mentioned. For more information on this event please see the previous post.lol. Anyway...the day was well spent, most of the whole day just hanging out with good friends, then of course once the clock hit 5:30..lol.it's party time. Everyone started changing into their costumes, pre-drinking. It was a total blast, there were parties on every floor of course, and many of the rooms were being shared as party space. It was great. There's nothing better than hanging out with your friends, dressed up as the most ridiculous things ever. Some of the many different creatures I saw prowling about this weekend were Clint Eastwood, a Power Ranger, a few pilots, the fallopian swim team, two bananas, a chicken, a swan, a twinkie, fred flinstone and a whole bunch more. It was great. Of course there was an abundance of everything sluttier...such as slutty cop, slutty nurse, slutty barbie, and all sorts of stuff. Lots of drinking, partying, dancing, groping? lol, public displays of affection, and a lot of sexual tension in the air. I am fairly sure that many of my friends got frisky that night. haha.



After the whole party, I went back to rez with a friend of mine and we had a little chat for a little bit. Then totally out of the blue, a friend of mine, someone I knew for a while txt msged me. I was of course fairly drunk..ok..I was VERY drunk. So I txt msged him back. Remember this was after the whole cab, it was 2:30 some in the morning. He asked me to come by to his apartment, and of course I did. Well, we talked for a little bit..and then..well..again, I was fairly drunk. sooo...we ended up putting a movie on. I don't even recall what movie it was. But..we were just lying on his bed, then he turned to me, asked me what I was thinking. I started rambling about the next day, what I would be doing and all that. Then he just kissed me. Of course, I kissed him back. We made out for a little bit, and he took his shirt off, and the story goes on from there. I don't think I should go into further detail into that.

The funny thing is, this guy was one of the few people I came out to, and he was extremely nice to me about it, always comforted me and was the person I went to about most of my problems. The weird thing was waking up in his room the next morning, I woke up earlier than he did, I always wake up early. I had to pee, you know, the morning whiz lol. So I had to get up, only in my boxers, and go to the bathroom. I walked out of his room, looked around to make sure that noone was in the vicinity and then ran into the washroom. When I got out, I heard a "good morning, your night sounded fun and loud". I think his roommate thought he was talking to him, not me. He saw me and apologized. I apologized, and felt so awkward. I was speechless. His roommate by the way is another friend of mine. We're not very close, but he is still a fairly good friend. I stood there...not knowing what to say. He choked on his coffee. This is no joke, he choked on his coffee. So, basically, I thought to myself, he's already suspecting things, might as well tell him. And so I did. I sat him down, this cute, tall blond boy every girl I knew had a crush on. We talked, it was early, like 8:30. We ended up finishing our conversation 2 hours or so later. He seems fine with it. We ended up playing squash later that day, and everything seemed normal. Although every hour or so, he would ask me something related to my sexuality. lol. He was very curious. What was sad was that I had no answers for many of his questions, because in truth, I don't have much experience regarding being gay. I'm just glad the weekend was such a good one!

Anyhow, I hope you guys all have a good week and a Happy Halloween!

Here's a video of a few D&G models. Enjoy.



-Donnie!

Halloween is Coming...

I have a dillema. I need to figure out what I can be for the halloween cab. For those who aren't familiar with "cabs", it's short for 'cabaret'. Basically, it's a special event at the Den(university bar) for students that's held by certain clubs in the school to raise funds. Most cabs are themed and everybody dresses up. For example, there is the 80's cab, the halloween cab of course, and my favourite, the pornstar cab. The Pornstar Cab at the university is infamous for being uninhibited; basically everything goes. So, it's a fairly big deal that the costume that I wear for the halloween cab is fun, creative, while still looking good. A few friends of mine and I have had several ideas...ie. Raggedy Andy, Indiana Jones, Top Gun Pilot, Lion and Fireman. haha. I desperately need help trying to figure out what I should be. Oh. I just had an idea! Imagine being Anderson Cooper for Halloween!?! My only problem would be that noone would have any idea who I was trying to be. Anyway, if you had any suggestions, I would love to hear them!



Anyhow...the other day, I was hanging around at a coffee shop, a nice little coffee shop on the second floor of an artist oriented building. I was just having a couple of drinks, no hot beverages of course. I was just reading a book, when this guy at another table started throwing glances at me. Of course I was totally oblivious at the fact that he was glancing at me..haha..anyhow, he decided to come up to my table, he introduced himself and we started chatting. He was a cute guy, and he seemed very nice at the beginning, until he pulled out a shocker of a line. As we were discussing the many problems of being gay, and me being in the closet, he says "I've just had a thought...you look like you're a good cocksucker. Do you swallow?" I was appaled. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. At first, I laughed it off, but he didn't flinch. He was dead serious, and I was seriously regretting carrying on the conversation with this strange stranger. I'm usually always eager to meet new and random people, because they always end up to be some of my most amazing friends. But, after this experience I don't think my eagerness to meet random people will ever be the same. So, in response, I told him that I had to go and that I was going to be late for a meeting with a friend. He asked if I could have my number. I told him that I don't give out my number to people, so he gave me his. I was so upset. I just need to shake it off, and hope that the rest of the world isn't like this guy.

Anyhow, I'm off. Thanks for your comments everyone! BTW, the top picture has nothing to do with anything I just wrote, I just wish someone like him would be at the cab, lol..I would have way more fun then!

-Donnie Cooper

Green Eyes...

Lately I've been finding myself less scared, less apprehensive, less worried, that someone will find out about my sexuality. It's been a positive, in my opinion, because it gives me the chance to be more confident and stops me from deterring myself from doing things I would normally want to do. For example, today I bought my first ever gay-oriented magazine. I bought 'Genre'. I wasn't really certain which one to get, there were so many different kinds. But for the first time, I was able to go to the GLBT section, pick up a magazine and look through it and then eventually walk up to the cashier and pay for it. I bought it. I couldn't believe it. Others might feel that it's lame for me to be so proud of such a miniscule accomplishment, but for me it's an incredible feat. The only problem with my purchase today was that I bought last month's issue, rather than the current one. haha. Oh well...

I've also been finding myself more courageous when it comes to other guys. Everyone has experienced that unexpected situation, where you find yourself looking at someone, they in turn look back, and awkward eye contact is made. Prior to my newly found confidence, I would quickly turn away, look down or simply close my eyes altogether(quite unsafe when at the university walking amongst hundreds of other students) when thrust into these awkward moments. Now, I make eye contact and smile or nod to the other guy. Their reactions are not how I had expected them to be. Not one person looked as though they were upset, or raging with anger because they know I'm gay and looking at them. haha. What was I thinking? Rather, I find that much like I was, guys were more shy. They would look away, seeming apologetic even, that they had made eye contact. Others smile back, keep the eye contact and nod as well. It's a great way to turn an otherwise lousy day into a generally good one. I find that when I see someone smiling, laughing, or just looking happy, it makes me feel happy. I don't think I have ever been upset due to a smile flashed across the room in my direction. Have you? And eye contact, to me anyway, just seems to be a great sign of respect and acknowledgement.



I love my newly discovered confidence. You never know, maybe next time I'll actually have the courage to talk to a guy I find is cute and see where it goes, instead of waiting to be introduced to these guys. haha.

Oh, and for a last note, I would like to mention that I have fallen even harder for Anderson Cooper, when I saw a clip of him on 'Regis and Kelly', speaking of his inability to drink hot beverages....just like me!!!! I don't drink coffee or hot chocolate because I just can't drink hot drinks. When someone offers me hot chocolate, I gladly accept the offer, but I ask them if they have any ice. haha. Otherwise, I wait a very, very long time for it to cool before I can take a sip. Here's the clip.



-Donnie Cooper!

P.S...I got my first comments this week. Thank you guys! You made my week... :)

Super Hero Eyes...

...with a matching superhero body!



Beautiful Eyes...I just get lost in them



Fashion Flair



Black and White Provacateur



Although he has yet to wear the tights, I believe it's safe to say that he'll make a fine Superman!

Gosh...you know I have to admit, I wasn't the biggest fan of Tom Welling. But after the first season of Smallville, who can deny him? And, today, a reminder of his gourgeousness haunted me. I saw the 'visual guide' to Smallville, and I just had to write this post. I was going to post some pictures of Brandon Routh...but Tom Welling deserves his own post, don't you think? Anyway, here's a video featuring Tom Welling...



-Donnie Cooper

He's Back Baby...

I love him. I love him. I love him. And he's back, and bringing sexy back with him..haha. Andy Roddick is on to play Roger Federer in his second appearance at the US Open final and 4th Grand Slam final.


Although, Roger has the advantage, being the world no. 1, and having beat Andy 10 times out of their 11 match-ups, Andy is still one of my favourite tennis players and one of my favourite athletes. I mean look at him, and his serve...boy, lol, his serve is tremendous, with the fastest serve ever recorded at 141 mph! How's that for power? He defeated Mikhail Youzhny, another hot tennis player, 6-7, 6-0, 7-6, 6-3, to land the final tomorrow with Roger Federer. We bid Andy GOOD LUCK! We know he'll do us proud.


-Donnie Cooper

My New Home...

I have found my new home. This is where it is. Welcome everyone! I really don't have much to say in this little welcoming to the new home for my thoughts and such. So I will leave it at that. Don't forget to check back at SplinterPanel! for more news and editorials from myself and from my fellow journalists! Now I leave you with one of the most offensive songs, not for me, but for others, that I have ever heard. But boy, is it funny. So take it lightly please!



-Donnie Cooper

Have You Ever...

Have you ever felt as though everything that seems to be happening in your life has become a blur? Lately, it seems as though my entire life is going in slow motion, with no path or direction. Has anybody else felt that way? I haven't been able to grasp what's really going on, and couldn't seem to explain to myself why I felt the way I did. Then I was browsing through youtube as most people in my situation do. Bored and having nothing to do, I browse youtube to find something to entertain me. I found a beautiful little video. In all reality, it was the music playing that caught my attention and kept me watching. The music, a piano piece, is just beautiful, calm and serene. It entangles the mind and relaxes the muscles of the body. It's entrancing, it really is. So here's the video for all of you to see. It's from a Russian/Ukrainian artist named Verka Serduchka, also known as Andrey Daniko. I believe the song is called 'After You' in English, and I have no clue what the Russian is. Anyhow, I hope you enjoy it. This song represents how I feel at the moment, and is simply the only thing that can explain that feeling.



-Donnie Cooper